Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Wah! @ 11:45 PM

Hello Hello, since some pple ask me about my paper ( actually not a lot la) and I could only say bits n pieces, so lemme attempt to explain!

Hm, I think it is not really a good paper la, not sad, but a little disappointed course I put in the most effort for it, and I felt a little cheated by my lecturer la! Since this is my 2nd paper in two days, both involving lotsa memory work, I decided to leave all the memorising till yesterday, so I wont eh "waste" my brain space. I kinda counted that if I did the maths part perfectly, or almost perfectly, I still can get a first, so the memorising part was just additional work to eh satisfy my own high expectations. So, the lecturer gave us a sheet of paper, stating down all the stuffs that we should know, all the proofs that we should know, blah blah blah. That's about like at least 85 percent of the course, and I dutifully memorise all the stupid 3 pages long proofs, totally ignoring those stuffs that she didn't mention at all. BUT, all those stupid proofs didn't came out, and about 15 marks were given to things that were not mention in the *revision sheet*, so those totally gone case la. Then i did something really stupid la. we learnt like 3 models of credit risk, but I only know them by the definition, eg structural approach etc. But I didnt know the exact name! So when she ask us to derive the merton's model, i was like freakkk which model is that? In the end I used the wrong model la! I freaking spend a lot of time deriving the wrong model.. so thats another 6 marks. And there are at least 5 other marks gone course somehow my brain cannot differentiate properly, and I am left with some flawed answer la. So, the point is, all the studying done didnt actually improve my marks la! I could do what I could do, but if only I had learnt the other 15 percent of the course, I would have totally frag the paper. So moral of the story, don't believe what ur lecturer says!!! She makes u study useless stuff!!!

But anyway my dad called me and ask me not to be too stress n don't aim first since I only need to pass my papers anyway. Haha! so ok! I pass can le! But still cant help but feel disappointed la.. course i really spend freaking a lot of time on it lor!! Mainly because this is what I will be doing in Masters la. Hm.. but nvm.. whatever U study is also for long term benefit la, even though it wont show in my grades.. AHAHA!!

wahh another paper on thursday.. i'm taking a big big gamble.. There's 7 chapters, I'm going to study only 5 chapters. It's 5 choose three question, so hopefully I can do at least 3 la lalalala!!!

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Wah! @ 11:45 PM

Hello Hello, since some pple ask me about my paper ( actually not a lot la) and I could only say bits n pieces, so lemme attempt to explain!

Hm, I think it is not really a good paper la, not sad, but a little disappointed course I put in the most effort for it, and I felt a little cheated by my lecturer la! Since this is my 2nd paper in two days, both involving lotsa memory work, I decided to leave all the memorising till yesterday, so I wont eh "waste" my brain space. I kinda counted that if I did the maths part perfectly, or almost perfectly, I still can get a first, so the memorising part was just additional work to eh satisfy my own high expectations. So, the lecturer gave us a sheet of paper, stating down all the stuffs that we should know, all the proofs that we should know, blah blah blah. That's about like at least 85 percent of the course, and I dutifully memorise all the stupid 3 pages long proofs, totally ignoring those stuffs that she didn't mention at all. BUT, all those stupid proofs didn't came out, and about 15 marks were given to things that were not mention in the *revision sheet*, so those totally gone case la. Then i did something really stupid la. we learnt like 3 models of credit risk, but I only know them by the definition, eg structural approach etc. But I didnt know the exact name! So when she ask us to derive the merton's model, i was like freakkk which model is that? In the end I used the wrong model la! I freaking spend a lot of time deriving the wrong model.. so thats another 6 marks. And there are at least 5 other marks gone course somehow my brain cannot differentiate properly, and I am left with some flawed answer la. So, the point is, all the studying done didnt actually improve my marks la! I could do what I could do, but if only I had learnt the other 15 percent of the course, I would have totally frag the paper. So moral of the story, don't believe what ur lecturer says!!! She makes u study useless stuff!!!

But anyway my dad called me and ask me not to be too stress n don't aim first since I only need to pass my papers anyway. Haha! so ok! I pass can le! But still cant help but feel disappointed la.. course i really spend freaking a lot of time on it lor!! Mainly because this is what I will be doing in Masters la. Hm.. but nvm.. whatever U study is also for long term benefit la, even though it wont show in my grades.. AHAHA!!

wahh another paper on thursday.. i'm taking a big big gamble.. There's 7 chapters, I'm going to study only 5 chapters. It's 5 choose three question, so hopefully I can do at least 3 la lalalala!!!